I've spent most of my adult life trying to make the right decision so that everyone (my family mostly) is safe and happy. I've felt a bit like a meerkat - keeping watch over everyone else, looking out for danger, making sure they are fed, clothed, housed and cared for properly. In every new situation I have to check out the dangers as well as the possibilities. That's just the way I am.
I never gave this much thought - I was too busy raising my children, doing my job, looking after my home, cooking meals, all the usual stuff.
Then one morning, while rushing to get ready for work I decided to take the rubbish out to the bins. One more quick job to fit in before leaving the house. It was raining outside and I didn't notice that my shoes were wet when I was taking the bin back into the kitchen ... where we had ceramic tiles ... and then I slipped ... and broke my leg. End result? Six weeks at home on the sofa recuperating.
During those six weeks I learned to slow down. It was March 1998, the rest of the family were out at work or school and I finally had time to think about myself and what I wanted to do. The end result was that I started my training as a massage and aromatherapist , life coach and EFT practitioner.
All the training I've done has taught me one very important thing - to listen to my intuition. My body knew I was pushing it too hard. I just wasn't listening, so it had to shout pretty loud to get my attention.
My life changed then - and I began to learn more about myself and how the world really works.
I learned that "what you believe is true" (meaning that we see the world through our own filters). I believed that I "had to" be the one to hold everything together at home - till I learned that the world didn't fall apart if I stopped. In fact it got better when I started doing less. When I got out of my own way.
I learned that "what you focus on, you get more of" (the Law of Attraction - thank you Abraham-Hicks). My focus was on how many things I had to fit in to my day - and of course there was always something else that needed doing. It was endless. When my focus shifted to just getting better, I got better. When I concentrated on giving myself time to recharge my batteries, I found I had more energy. Sounds obvious now, but at the time, stuck in the thick of it all, I really couldn't see the wood for the trees.
I learned to "perfect my environment" (thank you Thomas Leonard). My environment affects how I interact with the world. If my desk is cluttered, so is my mind. I limit the time I spend at parties because crowds and noise overwhelm me - I'm happier sitting at a table with a few friends.
I've learned to "be sensitive". Now I know that my natural tendency to notice danger is just a part of my increasing awareness, my increasing sensitivity to everything around me. So sensitive is good - using all my senses: sight, smell, hearing, touch, feeling and intuition.
And most recently I've learned that the problems I've had in my life are things I've been holding on to - things I now know I can let go of, using EFT (thank you Gary Craig and Jenny Cox). I don't have to be angry any more about something that happened in the past - I can tap it away. I don't have to feel awful any more about failing at something - I can tap it away. I don't have to feel too scared to do something new that takes me out of my comfort zone - I can tap it away.
So how do you do this EFT thing? I'll tell you in the next post ...